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I woke from a dream this morning, feeling lonely, frustrated, and full of fear. I don’t know what kind of fear it was, but when I woke up, I was crying out loud for Jesus to protect me and to stay with me. I can still see the dream in my mind, but I don’t know how to describe it - I thought I was in a good place, but very quickly all of the things that I thought I need for my job and my family were disappearing from me quickly.

After I spent a few minutes, praying out loud to Jesus, accepting His comfort, I was able to go back to sleep.

In a few hours, I woke up again, remembering a dream that I just had. This dream was like a follow-on to the previous one. I was with some friends trying to explain to them what the previous, horrifying dream was like. I wanted to draw on a whiteboard the picture of what I could see in my dream. Every time I picked up something to draw on the board, the marker fell apart in my hands. Then I realized that the details of the dream were not important. I had clearly received the message from the Lord. He was telling me that the first dream was generated out of my fears which needed to be submitted to Him. He has already won the victory for me. When the enemy comes to question whether Jesus still loves me and will take care of me, I am to stand against the devil and he will flee from me.

Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
(James 4:7, ESV)

This morning, while I was listening to a YouTube, I saw an advertisement for a generator. It looked like a really good one that would not cost very much money, and was portable and had a solar panel. The person was persuasive. I made a copy of the link to the video describing the product.

Then, in my quiet time, the Lord asked me to read Psalm 23 from the Passion Translation. I like this translation because it gives me a good impression of what the heart of God is. The answer to my question about whether I should buy the portable generator was very quickly answered by verse one:

The Lord is my best friend and my shepherd.
I always have more than enough.
(Psalm 23:1, TPT)

When I get hungry, I prepare food for myself. When I run out of something that I would like to have for a future meal, I buy it at the store. When something is not working correctly in my house, I do the best I can to fix it or call someone to help me. When I am feeling lonely and ignored, Holy Spirit reminds me that in Jesus I always have enough - no, more than enough!

For some people, the answer might be, “Yes, buy the portable generator. This is the reason why you need it.”

But for me, the answer is, “No, you don’t need the generator, because the only reason why you would buy it, is that you think that I am not going to provide for you.”