Time

[2] And the LORD answered me:
“Write the vision;
make it plain on tablets,
so he may run who reads it.
[3] For still the vision awaits its appointed time;
it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
If it seems slow, wait for it;
it will surely come; it will not delay.
(Habakkuk 2:2-3, ESV)

When I woke up this morning, I wrote down my dream:

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We were filling out our timesheets.
There were two different kinds of timesheets.
One was just a basic entry that said we worked 40 hours in the week.
We had to send them one place.
And another time sheet that included the details of what projects we worked on.
It seemed to be very complicated.

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All my life, by the end of the day, most days, I felt like I was very productive. However, I had a hard time recognizing that the things that I did during that day were actually meaningful. When I say, meaningful, I mean working toward the vision that the Lord was giving me.

Recently, I realized that this new season of my life was very different than anything I have experienced so far. I never imagined that after I retired that I would be sitting around, trying to feel comfortable that I truly was working toward the vision that God had given me. And even though retirement is a time when people are elderly, I never anticipated the possibility that I would be alone during this time.

After a few months of receiving lots of information about what the Lord wanted me to be doing during this time of my life, I decided to collect those pieces of revelation and try to piece them together. I thought I got to the point where I was ready to say that I could now draw the picture, or as the scripture says, write it down clearly. Just a few days ago, I started to realize that I wasn’t going to be able to do this. My heart started to break. I was running, but was I getting off the path?

I am getting to the reason why I put my dream in this post.

God’s goodness and mercy have followed me all the days of my life. Receiving this dream is an example of this.

I spent most of my years having to account for the things that I was doing at a very low level. That’s because the people that hired me needed a way to justify my employment. My timesheets were very complicated and frustrating at times.

But God has no need to justify my existence in His kingdom. He knew who He was picking, and He has prepared me for the task. He has given me a unique set of skills. Because I know that my Lord is guiding me with His Holy Spirit, I should not feel a need to report back to Him. I feel His pleasure when I am responding well to His leading, and I feel His loving correction when I am not.

The vision waited for its appointed time - it is now!